As time grows closer to eruption, the days become shorter and the weeks swing on by.
Everyday I find it less and less appealing to run the streets like a rat and shake my bones in public.
I have been embracing myself and the time I spend on my own or with my truest friends,
painting, sketching, playing dress up, and cutting fabrics has become a daily routine. Anything creative that sparks my soul is where i want to stay. I sometimes obsess over living in a different era, but lately i have been able to transform that fantasy into real, tangible, things. Whether it be a clay molding, a short film, photo shoot, or piece I am working on- you can always relate to a time or a feeling from another place. Every piece tells its own story. It's magical really. Spending more time alone I am realizing that most of us do not spend enough time by ourselves. The amount that can be absorbed or released through a creation is much greater then when the time is spent out partying till the wee hours of the morning. Yes It was fun in 2006, and don't get me wrong I do enjoy an evening out to see a friend perform or the excitement of a new gallery, even a few cocktails and a good movie somewhere. I think these things grow on a person more organically. Mind and body feel clearer and it's easier to dodge the malicious snakes that continuously try and bloody stab you in the back. I don't create for an audience or expect an applause. I am just doing what I feel is right and is honest. Nobody is perfect and i have had my share of learning experiences, but i can say im happy with where i am at now, morally and honestly. I want good and some thrive off of evil. I guess you can say to each its own in the end. Life is not always easy and it hurts like a needle prick, but aiming to succeed like a queen with confidence, like a keeper of the gardens, will surely help anyone succeed in their endevours. Most importantly we must not forget a kiss, a hug, or maybe a letter of love for our family and those we hold closest.
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